I am interested in providing again but only for the right kinda man these days to be honest! I would want something through tryst, something discreet, I want my real name always protected and never said, not into slut shaming, etc. I wanna have a great time with someone and make people happy like I used to. I miss it sometimes. Some of yall were actually fun and nice to be around and it’s almost like I had friends despite the transactional relationship being developed. I am anxious i won’t even be able to do it again though because I wasn’t even popular before with it (which is fine) but now with rumors and personal info out there (that’s not even mine and/or true) I am scared to try again. I would like to say that no matter what is said about me publicly online, I’ve always kept identities, secrets and embarrassing facts to myself. I’m not into public humiliation like a lot of other people. but I don’t really know what to do yet. It may be another 6 months or year before I have the courage to provide again 
I do wanna say it does suck that the review I’m talking about personally was being written before I was ever confronted and then I get screamed at in my face and almost knocked down. I had zero chance and it’s not fair that someone wanted to make sure I was homeless cause I didn’t feel like kissing. I still provided, I just didn’t wanna kiss. (He doesn’t know this but I was diagnosed with early periodontal disease and wanted to get my teeth cleaned before kissing him cause I’m insecure of my teeth) so… since we are talking about reviews and how some hobbyists don’t want providers on here too-I think it’s kinda important to remember that sometimes people aren’t that nice on both ends. And not to mention all the mean things being said about me on here from men I’ve never even spoke to sucks
I have a video of me being assaulted which is why I’m not doing mainstream and haven’t for awhile which the guy who wrote the bad review knew about very well!!!! And men on here I don’t know were bringing that up against me… I wanna provide but I wanna provide to nice men who are gonna appreciate me. I bend over backwards in sessions despite one angry mans personal vendetta and it’s sad I can’t even live on a legacy of that. Providing seems like such an anxiety ridden chore I can’t even unpack anymore compared to how fun it used to be.
I do wanna say it does suck that the review I’m talking about personally was being written before I was ever confronted and then I get screamed at in my face and almost knocked down. I had zero chance and it’s not fair that someone wanted to make sure I was homeless cause I didn’t feel like kissing. I still provided, I just didn’t wanna kiss. (He doesn’t know this but I was diagnosed with early periodontal disease and wanted to get my teeth cleaned before kissing him cause I’m insecure of my teeth) so… since we are talking about reviews and how some hobbyists don’t want providers on here too-I think it’s kinda important to remember that sometimes people aren’t that nice on both ends. And not to mention all the mean things being said about me on here from men I’ve never even spoke to sucks
I have a video of me being assaulted which is why I’m not doing mainstream and haven’t for awhile which the guy who wrote the bad review knew about very well!!!! And men on here I don’t know were bringing that up against me… I wanna provide but I wanna provide to nice men who are gonna appreciate me. I bend over backwards in sessions despite one angry mans personal vendetta and it’s sad I can’t even live on a legacy of that. Providing seems like such an anxiety ridden chore I can’t even unpack anymore compared to how fun it used to be.
