Finally did it..... Thoughts?

moose314 · Dec 20, 2024

Saw a local lady today for very cheap. She was nice and excited for it all. but idk i just wasn't feeling it. I do take anxiety meds and anti depessants so it can affect my sex drive. I tried to relax and get into it but couldn't. Maybe I was just not attracted to her? Idk I thought maybe she was on drugs too but idk.. I eventually stopped and told her I couldn't do it and we just talked. i'm glad I gave her the money . it seemed and sounded like she needed it.. After this experience, I'm not sure if I'd spend more for a more upscale lady. I already have issues and fear when experiencing intimacy with a woman so maybe that contributed?. After today though , I just don't know. I did not enjoy this experience at all. I don't feel bad, but it just feels like it wasnt worth it. Thoughts? Is this just a you get what you pay for? I have done a few facetime shows with adult stars I liked and I just could not bring myself to enjoy that either.. I ended up just talking to them too. One was even suprised saying "Are you sure you don't want me to do something so you can Masturbate?" I'm 30 years old and I have a lot of bad experiences relating to sex growing up and in my 20s. i'm not very experienced and I just don't know what I'm looking for. This experience made me think that even if I was very attracted to the woman i could not enjoy myself. Just looking for advice or some general thoughts. Thanks!

OrganicCarrot · Dec 20, 2024