With my first duo done, I can cross that off my bucket list along with a couple of other things. I can also cross off taking a provider on a date, but I’m having a hard time doing so. I don’t know if I can actually cross it off, since the date felt rushed and I really wanted more one-on-one time with a provider. Whether it be with Addyson James
(Tryst Agency) or another provider, I realize how much more I want that date connection.
This brings me back to the date
@zm7000 had with Alex Coal
(Tryst Agency) a while back. There was no physical intimacy just two people fully aware of the situation and enjoying themselves. At first, I thought it wouldn’t be for me, but the way ZM explained it in his review made seeing Alex, and being in that situation, more intriguing. With no sex in the scenario, I can’t imagine how that shifts the atmosphere, but for the brief time I was on that date, I can say it made things feel a little lighter.
It was only for a little while. The time me and Addyson had outside of the hotel room was nice and normal if that makes sense. Getting to know each other outside of the hotel was very different from the tiny bit of time we get to know each other inside it. Compared to our time outside, being in the hotel feels rushed. I know it isn’t supposed to feel like that, especially when I always book two hours or more, but that feeling of being out and about with your provider while getting to know each other feels so much better. Which is why I want it so much more. There were probably a million little things I wouldn’t have learned if me and Addyson didn’t go out on our date, though calling it that now doesn’t seem worth it.
I had the option of a date with sex afterward, which is nothing new. But I don’t think a slice of pizza was enough for me, or even qualifies as a date. I’m sure Addyson would say it was one she didn’t care where we went and was pretty hungry for anything. I just know that if I had time to plan everything out, I would’ve been able to give her a date worth mentioning to her friends. Prior to the date, I was asking a
couple of you what would be considered a good time for a provider, when in the end all we did was have a slice of pizza.
I want so much more. It felt normal, even though someone like me and Addyson would never be in the same space with each other by chance. I’m starting to get that there are some things you can do in two hours and some things you can’t. The getting-to-know-each-other part is possible in that two-hour frame, or even 90 minutes. But I know I want to get to know certain providers more in a date-like atmosphere where there’s no rush and no time pressure. I don’t know if that’s what made the sex with me and Addyson better, but damn if I’m not willing to try again and see.
